Pushing Past the Pain...

So, over the last week or so I have been in tremendous pain, thinking I had an abscess, I went to the dentist to see what could be done. The dentist informs me that its probably an impacted wisdom tooth...one tooth causing all of this pain, and suggests before doing anything else I get it removed. This was Thursday evening, Friday was a very busy day at work so I didn't get any time to call to make the appointment, meanwhile, the pain is becoming increasingly worse....I can no longer sleep, I have tried Ibuprofen 800mg, and Oxycodone, neither of which work for the pain, but they do a great job of disorienting me and cause me to fall asleep while driving to work... that and the lack of sleep...anyway, I continue to push past the pain, because I am in the middle of training a new employee at work and proving something to myself....



By Sunday I was in the worst pain one could imagine yet I have not called out sick or anything, I sucked it up and did what I had to do, come Monday morning, I literally passed out twice, was vomiting, had a fever and chills and was crying uncontrollable, oh don't let me forget the head spinning, (no no exorcist style, i mean i was very dizzy). I woke up once on the bathroom floor and a second time in the hallway floor...and instead of helping me my mother (God bless her gentle soul...) comes out yelling at me, "What are you doing down there?!?! Get up!! Why didn't you just go lay down in your room?" Umm...probably because i never made it to my room, thanks mom... I'm fine by the way, you probably saved my life with all the yelling and all, I may have never woke up from my comma...so thanks!



I called made an emergency appt and had all my wisdom teeth removed that very day, I am feeling a lot better, a little soreness on the right side but this is nothing compared to how I was feeling before the surgery!



Anyway, I am kind of proud of myself, when in severe pain (whether physical or spiritual or emotional) we find out what we are really made of, or should I say what we are really made of is put to the test... I have a very low tolerance for pain, I will call out of work for a headache don't play with me! But this time I wanted to prove to myself that I could do it, that I could push past what I was facing and make it... And I did just that, I pushed past the pain and the sleepless nights and I kept going, I kept showing up, I kept doing my job, I kept a smile on my face. And in the process I discovered a strength in myself that I knew was possible, but wasn't quite sure was there because I never put it into practice....or at least I hadn't in a long time.... and although I was suffering all that time, it feels great in the end. I feel like its just another thing that was added to my character. If that makes any sense. Oh well if it doesn't, it makes perfect sense to me!