I need to get my pheromones under control if I'm going to master this flesh of mine...

Okay, so if you've read my previous post about being "Clean and Sober" then you know by now that I have graduated to my 7th month on my journey to Sobriety (I am not an alcoholic, I don't even drink at all and no I have never experimented with drugs).....My journey to sobriety is just all about me cleaning up my life and my act, getting and keeping my mind right, growing spiritually etc....

With that having been said.....

Okay, somebody please tell me, do I have a sticker on my forehead or back indicating my self induced plight... or can men just somehow "sense" it?!?! By no means am I walking around advertising ANYTHING. I always try to carry myself well, with confidence, dignity, and respect etc as any young woman SHOULD. However, it seems as though as the days, weeks, and months go on, I have been getting the most unusual types of attention and propositions....yes folks, propositions...we have some bold Americans....and Africans out here...

Not unusual in the sense that I don't get attention, of course I get attention, I'm a fairly attractive (being modest) young woman with my head on straight, no drama, no baggage etc... but the attention as of late (past 7months) has been seemingly a lot more "sexual" in nature....If that ain't the devil I don't know what is?! I'm tryna do right y'all but the tests and temptations keep coming from every angle.

But back to my original pondering...can they sense it?? Is it my bodies fault?? Am I unknowingly sending out double doses of pheromones??? Bloodhounds I tell you!

All jokes aside, its tough, not that tough, I mean I have never been out there like that to begin with, and don't consider it a favorite past time to participate in a lot of "extracurricular activities". But I am coming out of a nearly 5 year relationship, so take from that what you will.

Hey I just read that strippers who are ovulating make more money, it was in an article published by Science Magazine. So see, there must be some truth to my theory afterall?? I dunno, what do you think? (I will try to find the article and post it or its whereabouts) LOL

Strippers make more money when ovulating article

Sorry, I know this may be a bit much for those who think I am a Super-Christian...but I told you all in the disclaimer..parts 1 and 2 (see older posts) that if I'm going to do this blogging thing or anytime i write, I have to be real, I have to express whats in my heart, because, that's just how I am, I'm taking a risk by putting my life....my real life out here like this, but I'm taking it because I think its important. Its important for people to see and know that I am a real person too, I haven't been saved all my life, I wasn't born a youth pastor, and although I am both now, this is still me growing... we grow up into who we are meant to be, we are not born automatically fitting the mold of our destiny. We have to be stretched, shaped, remolded, cut, etc until we transform into the completed project.... I will always be clay in HIS hands....

We make the mistake a lot of times on both ends by firstly acting as though we have "arrived" or are too righteous to be real. And on the other end by placing people on pedestals or judging them based on a title or position they hold, overlooking the fact that they are people too or tryna play them like they've can't relate to you because of where they are now, but we all have a starting point. And we are all growing. We all mess up... some make bigger messes than others....but u get me.

I don't use my humanity as an excuse, I make choices, just like everyone else, some bad and others good. I don't make excuses for myself at all and I accept responsibility for myself. And I'm always striving to be better and make better choices and be an example and a light.

So, I apologize if you are offended or think I'm in any way a hypocrite etc. but I make no apologies to man for growing in my salvation and spiritual walk and bumping my head along the way. If i never messed up how would i be effective in ministry? If i can't relate to or provide hope for those that are still messing up?