The siblings I never had

Being an only child....only adult whatever, sucked growing up and is still sucking to this day! Do you realize I will never be an aunt?? Or that if/when my parents die, I'm left with no one?! That's incredibly
sad and lonely! Maybe my only childness is the root of a lot of my issues.... I watch people in my life (friends family members etc) interact with their siblings and I am so fascinated by this world/part of life I will never know, it makes me wonder how does it feel to be a sister? To have a brother? To share your childhood and ur genes and ur parents with someone who came from the same womb as u? Crazy....I'm so interested. I wish still to this day although I am a rational young lady, with full mental capacity, still wish I had a twin or just a sibling in close enough age proximity would do just fine! Lol. I am grateful for what I do have though, my cousins who were raised with me like sisters, and my close friends that I've grown up with from elementary school to adulthood, they r my sisters.... but I do often wonder and imagine the real thing. I can't wait to give that gift to my kids, they will have each other.... always. (Smile)